Truth

The usual thing to say to someone looking for a career/life path is "Do something you love."

Until recently I have not known a personal definition of love. In that recently discovered truth, I have realized music is the only thing I truly love. I have, for a long while, known I can live, though uncomfortably, without people and their praise, admiration, and affection. I can live without money, I have since I moved out after high school after all. I can live without most things taken for granted in our American socially accepted norm.

I cannot, however, live without music. Old and new, overplayed and never heard, music that has the sound which gives me peace in my soul is absolutely priceless to me. I would never trade that one "shitty" song today for anything. I have realized that "shitty" song is only so in this moment, and nearly never that way indefinitely. I need a career in music more than anything I have ever needed to date. How in the bleep do I go about this endeavor? This is new, scary, and uncharted in my reality. Reader, what in the world am I to do? The answer is a short one and the first one to come to mind. Let me hear it.

Good night,

Nick

Told you so...

So, if you care, you know Phish is back. Talk about intuition...I don't profess to be a sort of Kreskin, yet I do believe I am making a marked path toward spiritual enlightenment. This event, however, has nothing to do with enlightenment though, as I had seen enough of the telltale signs that Phish was going to play again as most other Phreaks had.

Moving on...





Work has started at the damn project...<--- whoops a typo...I think I'll leave it. We will be rockin' in full swing pretty darn soon. I am pretty excited as I will be in charge of the surveying for this project...It seems to me, well, the phrasing from my bosses makes it seem to me that this is the trial run at the promotion "carrot" they've been dangling in front of me for the past few months. We'll see how that goes...I'll either get fed up and freak out or it'll be a slam dunk. It is never middle ground that I have noticed. Maybe I'm always extreme (like everything in CO...lol.)

Moving farther on...




Ski season is looming ominously and I'm not in shape to be doing the "backcountry only" thing I have prescribed for this season...My lazy ass is going to need a snowmobile or something if I don't find some time to exercise a bit. I also need to find some stiffer boots so I don't f@#$ my ankle up again...it finally feels strong again. Good thing, since I injured it last April...D'OH!!!

Moving even farther on...






HA!!! You expected another picture here! NOPE! It's down there \/ \/








It's actually not farther on except if I happened to be traveling in a circle. In which case, it would be exactly 360 degrees from the beginning of this post. Now, October is certainly Rocktober this year, I've got Kaki King and The Mountain Goats this Friday, possibly Bob Schneider the following Thursday, a definite Secret Machines the Monday after that, and finally, the Halloween extravaganza of The Motet covering The Talking Heads. This is, in and of itself, quite the task to accomplish as I won't be able to take time off of work for recovery sleep...

Wish me luck reader! I'm gonna need as much as I can get!

G'nite

Here I am...

What, you may ask, have I been doing? Have I left for a world traveling adventure? Have I done anything different with my life?

The short answer, no. Sad but true.

Debt not magically going away, not getting any raises or promotions, I have had little drive to do much of anything but float (once again) through life. We all know the definition of insanity...yet I guess I'm not expecting change through my inaction, I suppose I am trying to get stabilized in my new place and see where I'm really at with my finances. I think it's a bit more expensive, but not too much. I think though, when next year rolls along, with my renewed vacation time, I will go somewhere far away for 2 to 3 weeks. That will be cool.

I have, however, recently bought a bass guitar and have been toying around with it quite a bit. I feel I have a knack for it and when I figure out where my extra dough is, I'll start up with some lessons. I am really excited to be able to play with other musicians, especially EEF. I can't wait to have a jam sesh with him!

Still single...and pretty satisfied with that. My free time is a tad on the boring/lonely side as most everyone I know is not single, but all in all I am content. Just watched "What the @#$* do we know?" Sweet. I like it...kinda new version of Gary Zukav's Seat of the Soul. Gives an interesting perspective of love and personal relationships. I think I'm not ready for a relationship. I don't have much to give right now.

What else??? This upcoming fall/winter KTI will be starting the R-H Dam & Res. expansion project soon. We've already done some preliminary set-up type stuff and I'm really excited to see this project off the ground and running! It is going to be one heck of a challenge, but if I/we can keep our heads on straight, it will be really rewarding.

Oh yeah...prolly gonna be a Phish tour soon...like summer '09. You heard it here first.



Peace 4 now,

NfS